I’ve been having a pretty ordinary week. Ordinary on most fronts, well all of them really. Training, work, food, everything. It’s got me to wondering. Which would I prefer? To keep striving for something even though that in itself is tiring, or be grateful and learn to settle with what I am or what I have?
It’s a tough choice because there is merit in both approaches. Learning to accept what we have and who we are and being grateful for the blessings we count is a very good thing to do. To continually seek to improve, to earn more, do more, have more, be more can sometimes mask a distorted perception of what’s important. Or it can stem from feelings of inadequacy, which is also not good.
Then on the other hand you have the value of seeking to do better at those things that are important. Of persisting in the face of adversity, or putting one foot in front of the other in order to achieve goals. That’s good too.
So can you see my dilemma? At the moment I’m thinking those things about the same thing. About my commitment to exercise and clean eating, to continually trying to reduce skin-folds. Different aspects of my psyche can argue strongly for each side of the scale.
I’m hopeful that tomorrow’s Tough Mudder session with Kirt, Tony and the gang will jolt me out of my reverie and get me back on track.